My long run today was a total disaster. In order to make it happen I had to go at 6:30 AM and I am exhausted. I get up early, so 6:30 is actually kind of late for me but I’m actually so tired that I’ve passed feeling tired and have moved to jittery, laughing inappropriately and have some sweet dark circles under my eyes. But I wanted to get my miles in so I got up and went. As I started on a very familiar, flat route that I usually enjoy I realized I was running more slowly than I have in months. And everything hurt. Badly. My feet, legs, hips, back… it all just ached. Not fun. Plus I felt chubby and sluggish (I’m not chubby right now, I just felt it).
I told myself to stick with it as it usually takes me a few miles to warm up but I haven’t had a long run feel this terrible in years. After 5 miles I took a moment to stretch out and made a decision: I was going to finish the long run and finish it well. At 9 miles I relaxed and my pace finally got down to a normal easy pace. I realized that I’d been carrying the tension of my week and day in my shoulders and legs and all the stress was causing me to alter my form which was slowing me down. And my breathing was really shallow. Once I realized this and let go, everything felt easier. It was a good reminder to chill out a little bit and to remind myself to be mellow while running. Not only is it more enjoyable, it’s faster.
My running week was actually pretty bad. The pollen is in full bloom which means that my allergies are firing on all cylinders and not only can I not breathe, but my eyes and lips get really puffy from being outside. My track workout went ok but my tempo run was a mess. Just couldn’t do it. I ran about 50 miles but the quality wasn’t there. I’m not stressed about it though. Life ebbs and flows and so does running. When life gets nuts, running has to take a back seat. And when life is more mellow, I can focus on running.
I’m considering running a half marathon on Sunday. The course is notoriously hot and I have absolutely no idea what kind of shape I am in, but I’m going to watch the weather carefully and maybe give it a shot. I haven’t run a race longer than 5k since December so I’m curious to see what I can do. If anything, it would be fun. And competition could be a good outlet for my nervous energy.
This week will be busy with work and running but I’m looking forward to fitting it in. I’m determined to get my mojo back and to run a solid week.